Nathan probably thinks I am a big douche

Three times have I been asked to make it to a show of his..... and three times something has prevented me from making it to said show. This last time, I was on track, on the groove to seeing him, and in the latter part of my work day I start to feel like absolute shit. So once I get home from work I go to sleep and don't wake up for 16 hours. Also since I am going off on who should be hating me right now, I am a really bad boyfriend. I haven't seen Alex nearly as often as I should. My only defense is that whenever I do go over there, it isn't like I spend time with her, I more spend time in proximity to her. And she doesn't really come over here.